Depressed and lost

I feel soo utterly depressed, i feel like im stuck in a rut and im walking back and forth back and forth and im not progressing, every time i feel like i have a handle on my emotions something happens that shows me just how much im not on top of things. I thought i was getting better, i thought that this depression shit was gone...i thought wrong. Things that have the power to upset right now shouldnt. These are the same things that have been upsetting me for the past year and i honestly felt like i had grown, if not in stature in my mentality but this is proof that im still the same Sedio i have always been; insecure, self conscious, depressed and lost.