A new leaf

I'm suppose to be putting the pieces of my life back together, but its harder than i thought it would be. Some where along the course of my life i have lost sight of my goals and aspirations. i have let others slow me down and hold me back. they havent dont it purposely its just that i have become so consumed n making every one else happy that i completely forgot about me and my happiness. WEN I STRIP AWAY Rashida, and Khadisa, and Shenique, and Raynard, and my mother, and my job, and the pageant.... who is left? Who am i wen i lay my head on my pillow at night? Who am i wen i don’t have anyone or anything around me that can change or effect the person I am at that moment? Who is Sedio Gregoire? Or is that hu Sedio Gregoire really is? Is she just a living, breathing entity that lives only to satisfy and justify the needs of others? Does she not possess an identity of her own? Maybe then i should leave Sedio Gregoire behind...Maybe i should adopt a new identity.....one that is completely and undeniably the 1 and tru definition of Me. No longer should i ask myself what is my favourite colour or my favourite food...no longer will i question the passions that drive me. Never again shall i question my true identity, cuz it will ring clear and true. The one thing that i am sure of..the only aspect of my self that i know for certain is..I am Confused...nearly always and constantly confused. But given time..and sum soul searching.. that will no longer be my constant state.